Who Am I - Part Duece

"Bullshit. I'm sure you do feel a little bit of both. But I know damn well you feel one more than you feel the other. The question was, which one?"
Budd - Kill Bill Volume 2

This or that. There or here. In or out. Down or up. Run or walk. Hot or cold. That's how things are in life. Its either you are one way or you are the other. There is no in between. In life we often favor multiple things, but deep down inside, we always crave one thing a little more than the other. Its just a matter of us figuring out our needs and wants. In my last post, I took a few steps back when I asked others to describe my personality. But its now out of my system, and I've learned from it, adjusted to that thinking, and I'm back to my normal self. One thing I have always known is, whatever I want to know, all I have to do is go within to get my answer. Or as my uncle said yesterday, "who gives a dam what anyone else thinks...it only matters what you think. Their opinions of you do not exist."

So now let me tell you how it really is....let me tell you who I am. First and foremost I am a man who knows that everything starts from within. There were a few male role models in my life, but growing up my grandfather was the one that I looked up to and listened to the most. And because of him, I can define myself as the following: gentleman, hungry (for knowledge and understanding of all things), respectful, strong, happy, cook, spontaneous, laid back, respectful, not into the world, spiritual, good listener, humble, communicator (at times blunt), open-minded to change, God fearing, charity, loves kids, sensual, bartender, writer, thinker, vegetarian, fit, and suave.

That is who I know I am. Pretty much anything else isn't important....unless I forgot to list something.

Well I'll end this two part series with this: sit down with yourself, and look at yourself. Think about who you are, what you need (not want) out of life, what your purpose is, and why you are at this certain point in your life. Whenever I do that with myself I am able to see that my book has 100 chapters in it describing who I am and what I've been through in life. That tells me not to ever judge anyone's book by its cover and look at the mind first. A person can be everything we want them to be physcially, but their mind can be terrible. If a man seems to have and equal amount of "thug" and "gentleman"in them, keep in mind, they are one more than the other. Sit down and think to yourself the true definition of each. Then ask yourself this question...what are my needs in life (and not for the moment). I know I'm a gentleman first.